November in Rain

Rainy days is coming back, in November. The stories about rain are coming and over. Rain is a long waiting period, a time which it could complete our silence when we need, and the smell of wet-ground is so romantic and makes a fresh sensation. I am taking a deep breath when rain came. Rain is my best friend, rain is my partner. I miss the song of rains.
I was sitting in a coffee shop, with a cup of hot chocolate and Mozart’s melodies. The sounds of raindrops are like a song. A friend of mine reminded me to a rain story, to my old memories, played my mind. Rain makes me realize what is a life, search trough, finding, parting, tears, happy-laughed, friendship, and love also. Rain makes me alive; it could make me dealing with my past. Rain teaches me in the process of waiting, and patience. I learn about the price of leave-taking and get-together processing.
My fingers stopped to make any move from my keyboard, when a waitress came with another cup of hot chocolate. ‘It is for free. Bonus’, he said. Aha, maybe he assumed that I was a chocolate addicted, because he knew that I have ordered a cup of chocolate for 4 times. And with the bonus it was be fifth. Actually, that day I just wanted to avoid coffee, and I felt bored with tea, that’s it. No other reason. But it was okay, after Spending my rainy days in this coffee shop I will get my weight increase. Yeah, weight-increased is not a big deal for me, but the big problem is my friend’s commentary and gripping about my jeans which is not fit anymore on my body. Hummpphhh….I don’t understand with her sometimes, I am getting fat but she feels furious. I enough tolerate. I know that she have tried hard to make her body slim, but she always fails. So, maybe she feels angry with me because I eat any kinds of food easily. I always answer her questions with a big smile and said “Just enjoying your life, Honey.. Our life is too valuable to think about what we should eat for decreasing our weight!” And after that, she threw away her sandals to me. She, one of my good friends has a same opinion as the society insight. She makes her weight decrease and her body slim ungrudgingly. Most people assumed that a beautiful girl describing as has long hair, white skin, tall, slim body etc. The point is perfect appearance. Women make serious effort to be a beautiful girl as people society insight generally. We must know that commercial break on TV shows and helpful to set-up the people perspective about what the beautiful women should be like?
Therefore, the framing of society construct that the beautiful women just like a model who shown up on television. Even, we are not models, but at least we are able to make over ourselves being closer with them. So that’s why the commercials break on Teve being dominated by beauty products. Sigh… Why don’t we make ourselves be confident with ourselves? Why do we have to try hard to be someone else just because we want to be loved? Why don’t we enjoy our life with a simple way? But well, this is not my capacity to give any comments and critics about this case. Sometimes, be natural seems look difficult than it is. Whereas, be a natural is simple enough. We could do that with accept everything which given. Well, maybe. I am just a wiseacre person.

So, don’t listen to me.

Nov, 2009